I'm Dreading Tonight

Tonight is Natalie's going away party and I'm not looking forward to it. I've spent a good portion of the day reflecting and remembering the good times and talks we've had over the past two years. A couple of times I've wanted to cry (like right now) and I'm not sure how I'm going to hold up tonight. I know there is a lot I want to share with her, I'm just not sure how I'm going to get it across. Dang it! I wish she didn't have to leave. What is God trying to beat into my stubborn, puny little head?

Well, the party starts at 7:30. I still need to pick up a cake. Sigh! :(

I apologize to those of you who find me uplifting all the time. You might want to check back in 2007 because I'm certain of one thing this year - I'm not in control.